My Journey Through Ectopic Pregnancy

My Ectopic Pregnancy Story, by sharing this i hope it may raise the importance of being aware of ectopic pregnancy.

The first time I experienced an ectopic pregnancy was back in August 2007, I wasn’t aware at the time I was even pregnant and in the week leading up to my ectopic pregnancy I was feeling generally unwell and not myself however I didn’t think much of it as i just felt a bit dizzy and just wanted to sleep alot so I thought maybe it was my iron levels or something. Then the day it all happened which i remember was a Sunday morning I was just walking around the house as normal and i had went upstairs to go to the bathroom then next thing I collapsed on the floor with the worse pain I had ever felt in my life, so I managed to make my way to the bedroom and then my husband decided to ring the out of hours doctor but by the time he got the phone i started throwing up and the pain was unbearable so my husband then had to call an ambulance for me.I think he was just so panicked and had no clue what was going on. When the ambulance crew arrived they had no clue what it was either and thought it was my appendix had maybe burst. They had asked was i pregnant and of course i said no and i also remembered that i had only finished my monthly friend so i thought no way couldn’t be (boy was i wrong).  When I arrived at the hospital they did tests and it still wasn’t clear as to what was wrong with me and after several hours of me getting worse and to be honest all those hours were a complete blur to me. It took me such a long time to even give them a urine sample and I had no idea why because I wouldnt have normally had a problem going to the bathroom. So when they got a sample of me they discovered I was pregnant, and after a scan said i was about 8 weeks. The scan also confirmed that the pregnancy was in the wrong place and my tube had actually ruptured causing serious internal bleeding. My husband and i were in complete shock, we had no idea i was pregnant and no idea why my tube ruptured or what caused it. I kept asking can we save the baby, but little did I know my own life was slipping away. Things then went really dramatic for me and I wasn’t sure what was going on as I was rushed to the theatre so fast and I don’t remember much other than being so frightened that I wouldn’t come back. I cried so much and at this point my parents had come and the nurses let then see me a few minutes before I was wheeled away to theatre. My Husband was allowed to walk down to theatre with me while I was being wheeled and I remember saying Goodbye and wondering would I ever see anyone again. Before I knew it I started to wake up in this quiet room and remember seeing lights but everything was so blurry and i could hear a lady’s voice but couldn’t make out what she was saying, when i started to come round I felt in some pain but it was then I realised my baby was gone along with my right tube, did this mean my chances of children were cut? All these things keep running through my head along with a million other thoughts. Once I was more alert I  was wheeled up to a ward and to be honest I still felt a little out of it but i do remember the clock saying it was just after midnight. Thankfully the operation was a success and has I knew they had to removed the tube as it had burst as they had since on the scan before.I will always be grateful to all the doctors and nurses who help me that day and beyond . The next morning when the doctor came round to talk to me she said I am lucky to be alive and she said if I had of waited another 2 hours or more then I might not be here today due to the serious internal bleeding that I had. At that point I was told it was an ectopic pregnancy but I had no idea what it meant other than the pregnancy growing outside the womb but i just accepted what they were saying. I remember once again worrying about my chances of getting pregnant because i lost my tube but the doctor said she didn’t see I reason why I couldn’t go on to have a baby and she was right. The road to recovery was a long one and for a few weeks I couldn’t do alot due to my big scar from the operation and the pain I was in, I had also lost alot of blood during the operation which made me feel unwell to but I was put on iron tablets for that and various other pain killers. I was kept in the hospital for a week and I was so glad to get home as it was hard for me to deal with everything that happened while I was in there.

Six Months later I got pregnant with my daughter and everything went well and we were both surprised how quickly it happened for us.It was a complete surprise.

When my daughter was over a year old we decided we wanted to try again but unfortunately I then had another miscarriage but this time I was bleeding in my 7th week of pregnancy and the hospital couldn’t do anything for me so compared to my past one I guess you could say that was more straight forward but I wouldnt say that for the emotional side, it was hard to deal with and I keep thinking why me, but after a few months my husband and I decided that we would try again and see what happens.

I then ended up having another ectopic pregnancy again and this was in November 2010 it was less dramatic this time but more emotionally painful for me. This time I was aware I was pregnant and was only about 6/7 weeks but I had not told anyone except my husband. I was sent to the hospital for a routine early scan to make sure everything was ok but when I had the scan done they were not able to see anything and they were concerned that I might be having another ectopic. They run tests on me and decided to keep me in as I hadn’t been well before I went up, mostly been feeling sick alot and just not myself. I hated being in hospital but then am sure no one does, I was really upset at the thought of losing my baby again. I was given more tests and scans over the next few days before concluding that it was another ectopic. This was really hard for me to take in. I just couldnt believe it was happening again. I was so upset I couldnt really sleep at night and every time my husband came to visit me I couldnt stop crying especially when he had to leave, one of the night he brought me a teddy and sprayed it with his aftershave so I would feel like he was with me.When I was told it was an ectopic pregnancy again I was given a booklet from the Ectopic pregnancy trust which explained everything that was happening to me and explained about the injection I had to have to stop the pregnancy progressing. This was called Methotrexate which is used to stop dividing cells, this was very unpleasant to have as i didn’t feel good for days after having it. I was really grateful about how informative the booklet was and I was able to understand what was happening alot more than i had the first time round.I was able to go home after my injection but I also had to attend the hospital every two days for tests to make sure everything was going the way it should  as in the hormone levels dropping and needless to say this was hard for me as it felt like a big reminder every time i went to hospital of what I had lost, I think the whole time I was in the hospital I hadn’t really taken it all in until I was back home.It was hard to deal with as the day after I got out of hospital the whole family from both sides were round at our house for my daughters 2nd birthday and I managed to get through the day but there was one or two points when I had to leave the room because I felt like crying. When I was feeling a little better I was able to go on to the Ectopic pregnancy Trust web site and chat forums which really helped me as I was able to talk to others about what had happened and read more information about it all as the first time this happened to me i was unaware of the charity or the work they did. http://www.ectopic.org.uk/

DSCN0497 The t-shirt I received when fundraising for EPT

For me the Story didn’t completely have a happy ending as from then onwards i have been unable to conceive naturally and after seeing a fertility doctor i was told it was highly likely that the last ectopic has blocked or wrecked the one tube left which mean’t for us trying again would involved IVF which is another story.

My heart goes out to anyone that has experienced this and I just hope that women will become more aware of the dangers of ectopic pregnancy and be more aware of symptoms early on.

The Birth Of My Little Man

Just like his sister he decided he was too comfortable to come out so I was given a date to come in for induction, so this time I sort of knew what to expect but this time around we were booked in at a different hospital so it all felt different for me.

I went into the hospital at 8am and was brought to a ward after nervously waiting around for half an hour.There was 3 other couples also there on the ward waiting to be started like us. I was then told about what they were going to do and then they give me the drugs to help bring on labour.Have to say i hated the internal examination but then who does. I was brought into a little room of our own while the midwife wired me up to listen to baby’s heart beat. After a while I was allowed off the machine and hubby and I decided to go for a walk to the hospital shop but on the way I started getting pains and had to walk really slowly which i felt embarrassed about but I was determined to do it because I thought it might help baby come down.It definitely felt like the longest walk back to the labour ward since my pains had gotten worse.

I got back to our little room and managed to eat and drink even though the pain was getting worse. The pain felt like the worse period pains ever I was offered pain killers which of course I jumped at, i also got given gas and air but to be honest i wasn’t really fused on it and I never used it the last time.

As time passed the pain progressed and I asked for an epidural again since it proved well for me the last time. However I have to say this time it didn’t seem to be as effective which I was told could happen in some people but never the less it took the edge off so I recommend it, the worse part is sitting still in pain while they put the needle in your back. As time went on the contraction were becoming more frequent and i remember squeezing my hubbys hand everytime it happened and as all this was going on i could see that the midwife had everything set up for the baby coming including the little cot in the room which really made it all real for me, after years and years of trying and having to go through ivf this was it, i was finally going to meet my baby.

So it was just after 7pm and I was ready to push but once again after half an hour the midwife decided i would need a little help from the forceps and said it was pretty common to happen again since it happened with my first labour, so in came the doctor and with alot of squeezing my hubbys hand out popped our little man at 19.51 pm and i remember the doctor joking with us as the little one came out in a superman pose so to this day we call him our wee superman. I had to have a few stitches which weren’t nice getting done but i was to busy admiring my little bundle that i didn’t notice too much. He weighed in at 9lbs 6oz and a length of 53 cm. The family knew we were having a boy this time as we couldn’t keep it to ourselves as we were over the moon about having one of each now since it took alot of time and one hell of a journey to get this beautiful little man.

jenson born

The Beginning – The Birth Of My Baby Girl

My baby girl decided that she was so comfortable in mummy’s tummy that she didn’t want to come out. So 10 Days after my due date in November 2008 i was given a date to come in and be induced.

As this was my first pregnancy to be honest I was pretty clueless and pretty nervous about the whole thing but a lot of it was overcome with the excitement of getting to meet my little bundle of joy.

I went in to the hospital in the evening time and I got myself settled in, and i was then given the drugs to get things started, after an hour my husband was told to go home and rest until something was to happen. I spent a little while sending messages back and forth to hubby as we both couldn’t sleep and I was starting to feel sick.

Around 1 am I started to feel pain like cramping and i remember thinking this is it, the beginning of life changing forever. A few hours past and I couldn’t sleep with the pain as it got worse but i still took no medication for the pain as I wanted to hold off as long as i could. At around 3am I tried to look for the bathroom and before I could my waters broke and I swear I thought I wet myself ha ha.

A while more past and the pain was just as bad and the nurse said that i wasnt dilated enough to go down to the labour room so she decided to run me a bath to help me relax but while she was away my contractions and pains got worse and this is when another nurse discovered that I had dilated about 3-4cm now and they decided to call my husband to come up as it seemed to be going faster and they wanted to bring me to the labour ward. By the time my husband arrive i had been moved down to the labour room and this was about 7am.

After all that excitement everything slowed down and i cant remember much from that until around 2pm when the pains got so bad that i decided to have a epidural. They are great by the way. It wasnt in my birth plan to have one but am glad i did now as it helped me be more comfortable during labour.

5pm Came and finally i was fully dilated and ready to push, i remember my hubby sitting beside me holding my hand. After a half hour of pushing it was decided to bring in the doctor and they had to use the forceps to guide my baby out and i was getting exhausted. Then at 5.56pm there she was my beautiful baby girl weighing in a 7lbs 8oz and a length of 56Cm. It was a magical moment i will never forever, i instantly forgot about all the pain and i wasnt aware that the doctor was doing a few stitches. My hubby even had tears in his eyes when she came out and he also cut the core which was amazing to see as i never seen him getting emotional like that before. Its amazing the way dads become dads the moments they see their child being born but mum’s are mum from the first positive pregnancy test.

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The next few hours where full of pictures and phone calls to everyone to announce she was here. No one knew we where having a girl we kept that one to ourselves.